my little guy’s smile

I’m a dad now.  Wow, that’s weird to type, but strangely those ‘oh my gosh, I’m a dad!’ moments have only happened a few times.  It’s like I’ve had Caleb forever, I can hardly remember or imagine what life was like before this little life came into mine.  Little, he is little.  Little toes, little hands, little belly button, little smile.  He also does a lot of ‘little’ things.  All the normal stuff I’m sure.  He likes to stick his little fingers in my mouth while I hold him.  Frankly, if your child would’ve done that to me six months ago (if you could’ve even made me hold em) I would quickly have handed him right back and asked for mouth wash and hand sanitizer.  But now I find myself getting spit up, poop and other assorted little stuff on myself and accepting it.  Somehow I’m able to look right past it (whatever the excretion may be at the moment) and look right at my son.  I don’t see all the stuff, I just see him.   I can’t believe how much I love the little guy.  From the moment I laid eyes on him I would’ve done anything for him.  That kind of love is new to me.  I can honestly say there’s never been another person that in the first instant I laid eyes on them I would’ve given every organ in my body if need be.  Until now.  When I come home and see his little face look up at me, recognize me and smile, wow, my heart melts.

It’s also changed my relationship with God.  Big.  I realize a small fraction of God’s view of me.  Does my smile melt his heart when I look to him and He’s watching me?  Does he look forward to spending time with me?  Is He able to look past all my ‘stuff’ and just see me?  Would He give everything to save me if I needed it?  Well, if you know Jesus in a real way you know the answers to these questions.  And now God has blessed me with a physical picture of his very real love for me.  Could I actually melt God’s heart?  That’s the question I have for all of us.  I also believe I have the answer, yes.  So if we can do such a high, lofty and precious thing, how do we do it?  Well, I would say we look up and smile at Him.  Smile at Him while worshipping Him.  Smile at him while reading His love letter to us, the Bible.  Smile at Him while loving and ministering to someone on this earth.  Smile at Him with your life.  Melt the heart of God, I believe you can.  Say cheese.

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